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Wednesday, October 10th, 2007
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| Time: | 3:47 pm. |
| Mood: | gloomy. |
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Нда …дядя Мэнсон совсем оборзел с такими ценами на билеты. От 1800 до 50.000 рублей! Да еще и с таким отвратительным последним альбомом. Грустно и противно.
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Comments: Read 3 or Add Your Own.
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Wednesday, February 21st, 2007
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Hell yeah , i got the tickets. I am going to St Petersburg to see the greatest psychobilly band in the world. Mad Sin. I am so excited, excited, excited...........................
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Comments: Read 13 or Add Your Own.
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Thursday, September 29th, 2005
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i finally got to the computer and the livejournal. soon will post the pictures from Europe, ones from the alps are amazing , mountains,forests, lakes, cabins, just beautiful. I really loved it there, maybe when i'll be rich and famous i 'll get a summerhouse in the alps or a castle would be better)). I spent a week with my lovely cousin, who finally grew up and with whom i can talk about everything. I wish i had a chance to go back to us again, but there are also many other things that went the wrong way, and i do wish we could have a third ,even forth chance to make things the way we want them to be. but would they be worth it then? anyway..it was a very good summer, Lisa from Seattle came and i spent almost the whole summer with her. she introduced me to psychobilly, and i am really glad she did. kinda tired of the whole depressing goth thing and want something different. now i wanna find any psychobilly shows in Moscow, if there are any. by the way does anyone know Sofia's email? i need it
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Comments: Read 14 or Add Your Own.
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its funny and sad at the same time, how things can change dramatically at one point. having friendship,getting attention and then after one event, everything turns upside down and you are ignored..its also painful. you keep on thinking and asking yourself why the hell it happened that way.
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Comments: Read 4 or Add Your Own.
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i finally turned 20. Yesterday was my first birthday ,which i didn't celebrate with my relatives, and thank God. But it wasn't that great. I've been cooking two days in a row, got really tired. And some people whom i really wanted to see didn't show up,that didn't not make me happy, at all. and plus my sister got into a hospital, because her fucking boyfriend bit her up((. then my friends were talking all night about drugs and trance.Man, i thought i am gonna shoot myself when my uncle called from us and told me that they want to meet me in Prague and they are going to pay for everything. i am very excited, castles and everything, this August. Then i decided that this is enough and i don't want to spend my birthday this way and i went to my summer house,where my alcoholic friends were waiting for me. i met some new ,interesting people. one of them set near me right away) and started telling me how beautiful i am, man, he was so drunk. Then he wanted to give me a massage of my foot)or my head.he and his friends were telling me that he is a professional.I gave him my foot,it felt great,he even told me that some women get orgasms from his foot massages))interesting. we celebrated my birthday till it was morning ,it was beautiful , except that one guy was keeping on telling me to go to his house,just the two of us, and get some tea) and sandwiches.Why do men always think about one thing ?Gee.
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i just love Moscow, you can buy cd's for 5, 7 dollars). I spent 6 hours yesterday at the music store,listening to gothic music and talking to a cute gothic boy)),who gives me a discount)i love it when i can talk to a person 6 hours straight and still have something to talk about. Its funny how some people tell me all the time, that someday i will grow out of it,but i know that i wont,this is who i am and i don't want to change. by the way, i am turning 20 this sunday, unbelievable).
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| Time: | 5:44 pm. |
| Mood: | nostalgic. |
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I wonder,why do we really start to appreciate things when they are gone?
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Thursday, April 21st, 2005
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| Time: | 11:20 am. |
| Mood: | loved. |
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Manson is coming! the love of my life))i am definitely going ,can't describe what i feel))))))
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Comments: Read 7 or Add Your Own.
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Thursday, February 24th, 2005
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i am soooo happy today!)i spent almost all day at the mall with my friend and it made me so happy ,talked about life,our future,friendships. it looks like my life is going well, i mean,beautiful. I just found a tutor,who is gonna teach me to draw)she is like a head of art department in university. and she is gonna help me to get in(hopefully))if you know people and they like you,you can get anything here,this is how things are in russia. I also just met a wonderful guy, he is beautiful, sweet and caring.we had a small get together at his friend's house, so we set from 11 till 6 in the morning,just talking,ofcourse drinking))and the beautiful thing was that i was the only female there. there were 6 guys. i didn't have that much fun in a while. and then, ofcourse,i had a terrible hangover. Finally i feel like i have ground under my feet and i am pretty sure where i am going. ))
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Monday, February 21st, 2005
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i feel like i am getting depressed. i haven't felt that sad in a while. Everything, just seems so fucking wrong and bad, and upsetting. and everyday i realize that 80% of men from planet earth are assholes.who care only about sex,only about satisfying their-selves. please, tell me if i am wrong). i really want to be wrong, but i think that i am right, arghhh..its killing me. although,in every situation i am trying to find a positive side,so,finally i can start writing my, gothic,depressed,suicidal poetry. and can start going with the band). so maybe suffering is making me stronger. but,i just want to be happy,i wanna know that people care and love me)and i know, my friends do ,but its not enough.
actually, now i feel much better that I wrote all these crap down. still, i really need a change, i hate where am standing at right now, but only i can change that,no one else.
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Comments: Read 8 or Add Your Own.
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Monday, January 31st, 2005
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| Time: | 9:41 pm. |
| Mood: | dorky. |
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what can i say? ))my life is beautiful so far, and hopefully it will stay this way. I got a tutor for Russian and everything is not as bad as i thought it would be.
I actually just started realizing that i really miss us and all of you guys. I almost feel like home and getting used to everything here. its like, everything around me just stopped spinning and i can see clearly my new life here and also, can look back at my old life in America. and i do miss it)), anyway... enough of this)i need to move on and be happy)which i am. i am going out,like 3 times a week,seeing all of my friends, and meeting new ones. There is one guy, who totally has a huge crush on me, calls me like 3 times a day, actually i haven't heard from him in a while, (and i am kinda happy(feeling bad about saying this)), because he went to Finland. he is a Dj. But still,it feels good when you know that someone likes you and appreciates,thinks about you,and doesn't want to miss his chance ,like all of my Dannys, seans, taylors....who, cared only about themselves and their time.but its kinda sad,cause i can't say the same thing about my feelings. Its always like this.but, as i said , he is not the one)
This Saturday i am going to a birthday party, actually i have two birthday parties to go to.))First, i am going to this guy's party, who i don't really know, and then to my old friend's party, who i didn't see for 5 years. I am very excited. I will have to sleep over there, which is more exciting...i mean...)),because metro is not working after 1 and you don't want to be drunk in public and it's freezing outside and not all of us have cars , when you are 20. we'll have fun.))
Hopefully,I'll survive, because those crazy russians drink a lot, and believe me, its more then you can imagine))))
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Sunday, January 23rd, 2005
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| Time: | 10:06 am. |
| Mood: | cheerful. |
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Hello everyone)))). well....i am in Moscow and i love it).I met most of my friends, but not all, cause everyone is working or studying. Everyone changed so much. most of my friends already have kids,isn't it scary?and Moscow is a different city now,we have malls , lots of them, and people are obsessed with clothes and fashion. Moscow has like 25 movietheatres, lots of gas stations, restaurants,coffee houses.But i see a big difference between people who are shopping at the malls and those who you meet at the metro, and that is sad, i see a big gap between rich and poor, and not a lot of middle class people. Hopefully, it will change,someday.
I met a lot of interesting guys and those of you who knows Xenia Sakhatsky,probably thinks that i am already in love with someone)))and yes...i think i am :)). and he is great. So, wish me luck. i will write more next time, cause right now i don't have internet and i am writing from my friend's house, i miss you everyone, i really do.
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| Time: | 10:06 am. |
| Mood: | cheerful. |
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Hello everyone)))). well....i am in Moscow and i love it).I met most of my friends, but not all, cause everyone is working or studying. Everyone changed so much. most of my friend already have kids,isn't it scary?and Moscow is a different city now,we have malls , lots of them, and people are obsessed with clothes and fashion. Moscow has like 25 movietheatres, lots of gas stations, restaurants,coffee houses.But i see a big difference between people who are shopping at the malls and those who you meet at the metro, and that is sad, i see a big gap between rich and poor, and not a lot of middle class people. Hopefully, it will change,someday.
I met a lot of interesting guys and those of you who knows Xenia Sakhatsky,probably thinks that i am already in love with someone)))and yes...i think i am :)). and he is great. So, wish me luck. i will write more next time, cause right now i don't have internet and i am writing from my friend's house, i miss you everyone, i really do.
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Wednesday, December 15th, 2004
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it's Christmas time,it's presents time)) can someone please get this for me, aawww, aren't they adorable ))))( hint,hint, you can get lots of this stuff in hot topic,wink,wink)))))
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Tuesday, December 14th, 2004
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I wonder,what is it about love that makes us so stupid. Like,getting drunk and then getting on your knees, and trying to read poetry ( about how you wish to find your true love), and of course forgetting every line of it, to a guy that your are so desperate about, when he doesn't give a damn. (and yes, i am talking about Taylor).
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| Time: | 4:14 pm. |
| Mood: | annoyed. |
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Why do i have so many problems with my teeth? Two years ago i had a root canal. Two weeks ago i got an infection in the same tooth,or whats left of it. I went to a dentist ,he cleansed it.After, i lived in severe pain for two days,drinking painkillers every 4 hours and antibiotics for 10 days. Today i went to check on it, and he said that i still have an infection. WTF. So now i have to drink antibiotics for another ten days, this is unhealthy and plus i can't drink any alcohol, thats even worse. Everyone is coming from universities, we are going to party, it's Christmas. This is no fun, no fun to look at drunk people when you are sober. I am upset.
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Today I had a very strange and a little bit scary dream. I saw myself back in Moscow. I met my friend and we started going towards a hill, in front of my house, even though there is no hill, but still.When we came I saw a lot of people sitting and looking at the sky. I asked " What is happening", my friend said that everyone is waiting for a comet. I said im gonna go home and change.When I entered the house , I saw that the clouds are gathering. Then, somehow I knew that I had powers and cleared up the sky. When I went outside, the comet flew through the sky, and then meteor shower began,it was pretty. But then this huge meteor appeared in the sky and I knew that this is the end. It fell and I saw a bright explosion not very far. Ground started shaking and rocks were flying everywhere. Then I ran to my school for a shelter,and I was surprised that there was no one around me. Not a single soul. Everything became dark, all lights went off and I was in my room.Again, I looked outside and I saw that these huge,creepy trees started growing everywhere, their branches started to move and became hands. They were taller than my house. Now there was a dark,terrifying forest. Trees were looking for the human beings, I knew it, but I also knew that there was no one, absolutely no one. Except for me.
After my scary,scary dream I went online and started to look for a dream dictionary. Sometimes it says the truth)). Well, it said a couple of things about the end of the world.
It said: (a) dream about Armageddon now is usually a deep-rooted fear that your world is about to change dramatically. By "your world" I am referring to everything around you, your job, your family etc. in prophetic dreams Armageddon predicts a dramatic change in one's life, possibly the death of someone close or in some cases, of the dreamer himself (but this is extremely rare).
hopefully not my death, or anybody else's))
(b)Many times, these dreams will accompany a time in the dreamer's life when he or she feels that the entire world is against them and only their association with something larger than themselves can provide a resolution to the struggles being faced.
(C)(Or, they may just be receiving an oracle about the conclusion of this world. . . .)
I think that this is right, because I moving back to Moscow and I also agree with (B).Let us hope, its not (C) ))),actually Sofia also had a dream about the end of the world not a long time ago. Interesting.
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Friday, December 10th, 2004
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| Time: | 3:17 am. |
| Mood: | thoughtful. |
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memories,memories))i actually miss Langley's homecomings and proms,even though they had terrible music and nobody new how to dance. i miss how we used to get ready for our dates(of course if we had one),miss the parties,getting drunk and waisted afterwards)
except for these ones,when your date refuses to dance with you, and then tells your friend that he is already dating someone!arghhh,but still,we all looked so pretty,especially you Brouck,...arghhh, John is such a pimp,like Tory said. Actually,now that i think of it,how could i have a crush on a 16 year old????
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| Time: | 2:42 am. |
| Mood: | embarrassed. |
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Ahhhh...Andy,Andy, honestly i am so embarressed for what i did. But still,good times,good times))
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